“Vulnerability sounds like truth and feels like courage. Truth and courage aren’t always comfortable, but they’re never weakness.” — Brene Brown
I closed my laptop today and took a deep breath in. My whole body just needed to rest for a minute. It felt like my entire being was tired and uncomfortable in its skin.
Nothing terrible had happened to me, in fact, it was the exact opposite.
I just shared intimate details of my life and belief systems with someone I trust. With the objective to grow and move forward and make those things less of a secret. And yet, I finished the conversation and felt like I had just used every last bit of strength in my entire body.
Welcome to the vulnerability hangover.
The pure exhaustion that comes from pouring out your inner truth to someone else and trusting them to hold it with you. It’s uncomfortable and scary and you’re waiting for them to drop it on the ground and leave.
But they don’t and now you have to adjust to the lesser weight that is on you while accepting that someone else knows what you held so tightly inside yourself.
You spend the next couple hours questioning what you just did and how you survived it. Almost wanting to look around and figure out if it really happened.
The feeling will pass. It will just take time. And eventually you’ll be ready to be do it again and the cycle will repeat itself.
A normal hangover is something we all say we never want to repeat. The vulnerability hangover is the one we get out and promise to return to.